Rabbit Rabbit

March 1st today and I am in Maine. Yesterday went to see MA, she really did not know who I was this time. Odd to be standing there with my Mum not know who I am, not know her relationship to me. So now I really have lost my Mum and I miss her. Pups surgery is scheduled for Thursday, I know he is scared. I am too - though I am imagining it will go alright. I'll be down there with him on Thursday. I don't know how to get ready for these 'big changes' - just get really quiet and pay attention - not get lost in my story about what is happening. Be as attentive to each moment as I can be. Really there is nothing more I can do.